Stop living in the #1 offender.

Dearly Beloved,

It's been said that resentment is the number one offender of spiritual growth as well as relapse in many recovery circles. Which is to say that a grievance against the now, seeing it lacking, is the only problem. What does that mean when you look at this through the lens of guilt or judgment, which is also said to be the only problem in A Course in Miracles. Can we see we are just describing the same thing with different words, facets of the only problem of separation between ourselves and God, by separating ourselves from our brothers or our experience of now? That it is a separation of cause and effect, through sick defensives of judgment. That our minds make an image of ourselves or the world into something that it’s not in a false perception. A world that tells us it's dreaming our dream for us, instead of us as the dreamer of the dream. A world where we appear to be a victim of something outside ourselves, requiring our defense.

We are describing the sickness of an emotional thought process or thought system of separation called ego, that is rooted in the defense of denial, and the dark force of defensive stances innumerable but really is just a single error. You can call it a grievance, judgment, guilt, resentment, or any term that describes suffering. They're all the same for a mind that believes it’s in competition with God as the author of who You are.

Most people are unaware we see something as guilty or feel guilty millions of times a day and don't even know it, as the guilt is unconscious. We are emotionally experiencing a sense of lack or loss of security in some way all the time. At times it's visible in the foreground and at other times latent in the background.

We are always judging reality from something learned in the past in which we perceive corruption, feel victimized, living in appetites of some many kinds, and believe in the illusion of a void. We are up caught in grievance or resentment against the one Self, constantly separating reality into separate selves, perceiving different levels of experience that seem to have no relation. Our life is a dualistic experience seeing the world of objects in consciousness and deluding ourselves that world exists independent of our own thoughts.

What is the solution? Jesus teaches us the Answer is miracle or true forgiveness. A term that also means true perception or a way of looking free of distortion. A faculty of the healing mind of the Holy Spirit that sees the false as false and the true is true. So what's false? The idea of corruption, loss, scarcity, or that you can be added to by this world, and guilt is real. And what's true? The reality that you are innocent, so is the world, and everyone else who is your Self. The reality that this world isn't real, it's just an illusion, and you are forever complete. If we can get an insight into this perception we can forgive what actually never happened. That's what forgiveness is. What perception of truth!

If we don't forgive this illusionary world, overlook its unreality, and perceive our innocence as the whole of our experience or Oneness of Reality, we maintain the sickness of judgment, guilt and a grievance against our Self or the now, which is our own mental condition and we keep sickness. That's the purpose of sickness, to maintain itself, because you're valuing it via the grievance along with the body identity, which depends on it. The illusion of a false identity can only be maintained by loving our grievances.

We always do what we want to do. And what we want to do we value. The human condition is valuing wrongly unconsciously. We can begin to want to forgive instead of want to live in grievances, which includes our preferences and the expectations we place on the world, which is the same thing.

The way to solve any perceived problem is to stop fighting it or making the false perception of attack real through defenses. When you don't fight your problems, which means to live in forgiveness or perceived truly, they go away. If we continue to stay in grievances we live in a condition that always leads to searching for solutions outside ourselves to remedy our problems, because that's where we believe the problems are having made them all real. In reality, the problem itself doesn't even exist, except in a hallucination. The separation from God never really occurred and we're perfectly safe forever. We're upset because we see something that's not there, living in sick imagination, that we hold up with grievances.

In order for us to understand all this, we must see judgment is defense and part of a possessive emotion of guilt leads to obsession, which will drive us to pick up another self-centered thought, another drug, look to solve the problem with something of the world, and perpetuate a vicious cycle of guilt, condemnation, and living in idolatry or the belief we are bodies.

The emotion of guilt is how ego justifies itself as real, which feeds on guilt, requiring the mind to manufacture more of its sick invention of guilt. It would have you not understand there is no such thing as sin, which means no corruption or lack at the level of essence or a real lack of love, and therefore nothing is really guilt. We live in a world where there are only mistakes to be corrected, requiring forgiveness, the innocent perception, which is free of judgment or condemnation.

The ego would have you not understand that all mistakes take place as part of an unconscious condition that is emotionally possessive. If we are fully aware we don't get taken over by sickness having understood it out of existence with the light of innocence as our Self. An innocent all-powerful Awareness. What a statement!

If we are asleep, a mental idol still has a hold on us, the demonic thought takes us over, and the unconscious ego mind runs our life. That's the human condition. No need to be upset about it anymore. Earthbound and time-binding body thoughts or grievances don't not make us a demon. We are forever innocent taken over by unconscious wishes for self-destruction, a willingness to stay in separation, pretend we are a body living in the illusion of control, as we work to be a little willing to go the other Way into the realm of the Spirit. A Way that makes the unconscious sick content conscious, so it dissolves. Is it the Power of innocence Awareness or a lack of judgment that does this. It is a silent power. A standing in the Now, which is always clean and immaculate as your Self, instead of standing from the past in the shadow self.

Forgive yourself for your slips, trips, and falls instead of kicking yourself when you are down so you can't get up. Never hate your mental position, which is whatever's happening in the now or you will keep it. If you are having trouble with forgiveness you're in love with preferences, hatred, setting expectations on others, living in a story in your head that's going to make you happy, addicted to yelling at others or the world because you think they're the problem, or your romancing pleasure which is pain. Isn't this true? We can't seem to stop beating ourselves up by picking up another judgment. Ask yourself would I condemn myself or brother for this if it keeps me in hell? What a beautiful lesson.

If we stay in judgment against ourselves for our misgivings and perceived faults we fall into self-pity, self-hatred, and the emotional thought process of guilt bringing feelings of shame and depression. We begin egocentric image-making and demonizing ourselves. If we don't see the answers is to forgive  ourselves, to overlook our errors and those of others, which is the same thing, we love live in past hurts and falsely imagined futures. Then we become vulnerable to solutions that don't work, captives by the possessive emotional thought of ego and may try to find something that will make us "feel" better. We may look to some external thing, some superficial change, having seen ourselves as lacking. In grievance against ourselves, we may look for more solutions that never work.When we begin to see this we realize how important it is to carry this message into our speech and in our actions. That in order for us to be responsible we must not judge the reality of our one Self, and live in the Mind of the Holy Spirit seeing the Spirit of innocence in everyone. What a holy perception it is!  

It's important to remember if we want total of forgiveness of ourselves at the end of this and be free of suffering once and for all, then we must practice it in the very beginning and at every step of the Way. We must see giving and receiving is the same. We must forgive the self of the unconscious activity to find our Self. The Innocent perception is the Way, the Truth, and Life!

Forgiveness my friend, much love!

Got Saves, Kenney